At the beginning of this year, amidst the many things going on and alarm bells going off around me, I was at peace. A special peace that seemed abnormal. I thought to myself, “I should be very depressed”, because the situation was rather depressing. When I thought about the appropriate response to what I was experiencing, it was different from my reality. Let’s just say I chose to trust God.
Faced with the ordeal of traveling to a strange land, I was afraid of loneliness. “How would I manage? Who would I talk to? Would God be close?”
I wondered if I felt this way because I was accustomed to being surrounded by many people. “Was this feeling a result of the reality I was about to face?”
My husband was about to undergo major surgery and it would be just the two of us in hospital in a strange land! A comforting verse came to mind; “I will never leave you nor forsake you!” I thought to myself, was this going to work for me?
Every morning, as I dropped the children off to school, they always told me, “Mommy please pray.” An encouragement that later made me realise that the Lord was always by my side.The desperate cry of my heart was, “I need you God!” Thinking about the trip left me feeling all alone. “If it were a country close by, at least I might know someone there”, a thing I kept telling myself. This only made me feel more alone. I chose to surrender the turmoil in my mind and heart to one greater than myself. It was at that moment that I immediately felt overwhelmed by love! The moment I surrendered my feelings and thoughts, I experienced love. People I hardly knew showed me love; they were nice to me, prayed for me, and took care of my unspoken needs. “I will never leave you nor forsake you”, became a reality. As I still walk on this journey in this new land the Lord has been by my side every step of the way. He has manifested himself through the doctors, caring nurses who have become friends and the family I needed nearby.
I want to encourage you, that whatever you might be going through, whatever horror is glaring in your face, He will never leave you nor forsake you. No matter how insurmountable and isolating it feels, He will never leave you nor forsake you! I want to encourage you not to give up, because he promised never to leave you nor forsake you. That is a promise he has made to us his children and he keeps it day by day.